Seems like I'm not a very good person – at least that's what I've been hearing the last couple of weeks. I'm not surprised, actually, but the thing is my attitude isn't hurting those I want to as much as those I love.
My girl told me just a few hours ago that I'm cruel, enjoying when I do harm to others, and those feelings are really scaring her. Though I think she might be right and I do care about her, there's this pleasure in punishing the people who's been bad to me or to those I love.
I've heard about 'Karma' and other universal laws, but experience hasn't shown those things really working. Instead I see so much suffering with no punishment for those provoking it, that sometimes I'd like to take matters into my own hands. Long has passed since the last time I did so, although the relief I felt afterwards still remains.
Bad things have happened lately, really bad things, and there's no 'Karma' to be seen. I think it's time to act... after all, I have that hero complex – or antihero complex, to be honest.
